Sunday, August 18, 2013


“Beginnings are sudden, but also insidious. They creep up on you sideways, they keep to the shadows, they lurk unrecognized. Then, later, they spring.” 

Beginnings are awkward and who am I kidding, I don't know how to blog! I got that quote from Goodreads after 'googling' "beginning quotes". Isn't that how people do it? Maybe this is a project more for myself than anything else or maybe it will be entertaining to others with enough time. I find a sense of normalcy in reading others' blogs so here goes "My Kinda Normal."

So about 2 months ago I thought it would be a good idea to buy a house.
"Little House"

Then I thought it would be a good idea to buy one with a pool. Then (1 day) after I closed on my house the AC and fridge broke. 

"The Great Idea"

It has been an interesting couple of months.  

I love my house, I REALLY do! But it has been so much work. I learned to mow the grass for the first time and I was so proud. I've learned how to fix drywall. I've learned how to turn a pool from black to blue. I've learned how to fight with a home warranty company. I feel empowered! 

I looked at one of my trees the other day and thought for a couple of minutes about how it was my tree and how I owned it. I'll admit it was weird but oh so satisfying. 

"My Trees"
  Before I bought my house I was nervous it wasn't big enough. You see, I grew up in a suburban cookie cutter house with a stay at home mom who was always cleaning. My parents' still have a big house with something like 3 guest bedrooms. I had this fear that people would disapprove if I lived in the country in a little house next to other little houses, some of which are in bad shape and 10 cars parked in the yard, with no HOA. After living here for a bit, that fear has completely subsided. This place fits with my lifestyle and I feel at peace here. 

This little house has taught me something, actually a lot of somethings. I'm in charge of my life. I have to make my life what I want it to be instead of letting anyone else decide for me. Choosing to buy this little house was an (unknown at the time) act of self-reliance. An act of self fulfillment. A beginning.